I never told you that taking four hours to reply to a text message is inconsiderate. I never told you that your best friend said I was too good for you, and that I should find someone else because you’re really not a good person. I never told you that I’ve started to realize your best friend is right.
I never told you that I’m not jealous or worried of the new girl in your life, because once she gets to know you, she will also either leave or be pushed away. If she has her life together, she will not want to be a part of yours. I never laid it out loud and clear that you are broken and unfixable, and I was only there to help you hold the pieces of yourself together. I cannot be the glue.
I guess what I’m trying to say is that there are a lot of things I could have said to prevent getting to this point. I could have been more honest, more open, a little more cruel. I could have stood up for myself a little bit, held my ground and walked away. I could have been a little bigger, stronger… but I am not that person. I am not able to hurt people if they deserve it, because I don’t think anyone deserves it. I am not that person.
“You start giving to others, and you’ll start to see your pain fade away. If you want to kill yourself, kill what you don’t like. Kill narcissus. I had an old self that I killed. You can kill yourself too, but that doesn’t mean you got to stop living.”—Vargus, Archie’s Final Project (via niiiiiicolaaa)
people say trick or treat. so you know what. the next kids who come to the door, im gonna trick em. im gonna tell them life is wonderful. full of happiness. devoid of woe or sadness. theyll realize how much i tricked them in 10-15 years
Yer!! So I can finally get a tattoo!! The only problem is that I don't know what to get -_- hmmm How have you been? I miss you so much!! D:
YES!! Make sure it has significant meaning to you. It’s going to be on your skin for the rest of your life so make sure it’s something you’ll never regret getting because I know I haven’t regretted getting my tattoo one bit.
Ugh, college sucks. Having no one to hangout with during my 2-4 hour break sucks. I freaking miss you. Please come back to my presence. I’ll pay you in gum.
“You’ll need coffee shops and sunsets and road trips. Airplanes and passports and new songs and old songs, but people more than anything else. You will need other people and you will need to be that other person to someone else, a living breathing screaming invitation to believe better things.”—(via coexistential)
“Forgive. Forget. Fake it. Chin up. Wear lipstick, make lists, make sure your voicemail isn’t full. Mix protein shakes, send timely thank you notes, sip drinks more slowly, stare at adults’ eyebrows, smile without dimples, develop perfect posture. Be gracious, be kind, eliminate self-pity. Look in the mirror and shift your internal monologue from ‘How do I look?’ to ‘This is my face,’ from ‘What the hell am I doing?’ to ‘This is my life.’ Capitalize your emails, read the news, walk briskly, stay focused, and never, ever let on that you are somewhat lost and sometimes lonely and so completely confused (and would someone please just let me know what it is I’m supposed to do next, where exactly I’m supposed to go–). Just keep going. Go, and do not stop.”—Jennifer Schaffer, A Checklist For The Age 19 (via a-lionsheart)
“26 shows up in the middle of coffee one morning and hands you a freshly printed memo that reads: “You’re going to get old one day and die. You’re cool for now, but it will happen. You’re officially on notice. You won’t be young forever.” And then 26 struts out of your office, like an unconcerned dick, having nonchalantly just changed your entire perspective. But it’s okay! 26 is a strange age that simultaneously feels older than you expected, but still refreshingly, hopefully, thrillingly young. It’s possibly the one age where the expression “youth is wasted on the young” holds no authority; we are undeniably, wildly young, but we’ve been young for long enough to know how valuable it is to be so. We have more respect for our youth because, while we aren’t there yet, we can see that it will be done one day.”—
“Let go of relationships that do not serve you. That means negative people, dishonest people, people who don’t respect you, people who are overly critical and relationships that prevent you from growing. You can’t grow as a person, if you don’t have people in your life who want to grow with you.”—(via 33113)